I-Want-To-Break- Free!

Im sure all of u have gone through this phase where u juz wish u could get away from thingz around u....I certainly am there right now!!! I hate decisions n I juz realise I suck at them....All along i've never really had to do much of decision-makin (thanx to my papa dearest!) Educational decisions were pre-made for me...all i had to do was go ahead n study...So in that fashion, i sailed through 4 years of engineering,then another 2 crappy years of Post Graduate Diploma in Business Administration, specializing in finance (special emphasis on the expansion cuz of the preceding adjective 'crappy') n now im at that threshold where i've gotta take a career decision.....Trust me, i've got N.O. clue as to what i wanna do...on one side im an instrumentation engineer...n then i also have an MBA in finance....n i've juz cleared my jap level 3 [im usin this opportunity to show this off ;) ].....n i love fashion designing n art n anythin creative..so....now i gotta chose a career in.....................??!!!!!!

I believe in destiny...n so i kinda feel that i will be where i've gotta be...but then therez this unstoppable wave of "peer pressure" tat does not lemme be! how i wish life wasn't all about gettin the rite job....i wish i could've juz been given that chance to do wat i wanna do....though i dont know what that is, i probably would've if i did have the chance...!!

I feel incomplete...n am not satisfied bein where i am right now....somethinz amiss n i juz cant figure out what that is....I have this innate urge to do somethin whacky...juz do somethin radical....a tattoo???piercings???been there, done that....i'd ofcourse love to get some more....but then i face the risk of bein homeless cuz im sure my dad would want me off his property ASAP!I wanna take a vacation to some far off place.....a Holiday[ like 'The Holiday'] that would let me get a new perspective of life....relax under the sun, sippin a granita....or be in the midst of a real avalanche, rather than an emotional one! Oohhh!i could juz go on n on!

I dont dream of makin it big or bein the next biggest thing in history...but i wanna do soemthin diff...somethin creatively satisfyin that would keep me goin....suggestions anybody????? :)

Im sure things would clear out soon....cuz my life till now has alwayz been a set of phases....each phase, crazier than the other, formin tat formidable past that effaces ever-so-often in the present....n everytime this happenz, i cant seem to get this famous line by Queen outta my head....I-Want-To-Break-Free............