Feb 26, 2007

I-Want-To-Break- Free!

Im sure all of u have gone through this phase where u juz wish u could get away from thingz around u....I certainly am there right now!!! I hate decisions n I juz realise I suck at them....All along i've never really had to do much of decision-makin (thanx to my papa dearest!) Educational decisions were pre-made for me...all i had to do was go ahead n study...So in that fashion, i sailed through 4 years of engineering,then another 2 crappy years of Post Graduate Diploma in Business Administration, specializing in finance (special emphasis on the expansion cuz of the preceding adjective 'crappy') n now im at that threshold where i've gotta take a career decision.....Trust me, i've got N.O. clue as to what i wanna do...on one side im an instrumentation engineer...n then i also have an MBA in finance....n i've juz cleared my jap level 3 [im usin this opportunity to show this off ;) ].....n i love fashion designing n art n anythin creative..so....now i gotta chose a career in.....................??!!!!!!

I believe in destiny...n so i kinda feel that i will be where i've gotta be...but then therez this unstoppable wave of "peer pressure" tat does not lemme be! how i wish life wasn't all about gettin the rite job....i wish i could've juz been given that chance to do wat i wanna do....though i dont know what that is, i probably would've if i did have the chance...!!

I feel incomplete...n am not satisfied bein where i am right now....somethinz amiss n i juz cant figure out what that is....I have this innate urge to do somethin whacky...juz do somethin radical....a tattoo???piercings???been there, done that....i'd ofcourse love to get some more....but then i face the risk of bein homeless cuz im sure my dad would want me off his property ASAP!I wanna take a vacation to some far off place.....a Holiday[ like 'The Holiday'] that would let me get a new perspective of life....relax under the sun, sippin a granita....or be in the midst of a real avalanche, rather than an emotional one! Oohhh!i could juz go on n on!


I dont dream of makin it big or bein the next biggest thing in history...but i wanna do soemthin diff...somethin creatively satisfyin that would keep me goin....suggestions anybody????? :)

Im sure things would clear out soon....cuz my life till now has alwayz been a set of phases....each phase, crazier than the other, formin tat formidable past that effaces ever-so-often in the present....n everytime this happenz, i cant seem to get this famous line by Queen outta my head....I-Want-To-Break-Free............

5 comments:

JANE JEYAKUMAR said...

:) break free!!!! yeah with the i - wan-na-brrrrrrrrrrrr-eakkkk- frrrrr-eeee; gee hyphens to emphasize the effect;) geeee. n yeah, on a more serious note; its that inevitable phase when we wanna walk 2 the horizon (for me its the scrumptious 'writing'), but the tides are soooo strong in pullin me towards a run-of-the-mill marketin shore!!! sumtymes, I jus wanna swim the seas n reach the horizon; but i'm afraid I'd be drowned by peer/parental, more importantly 'ma indecisive-self'pressure!
but i suggest; jump the leap of faith, it always pays u better!!

if u dun, i suggest u styll dun wury; destiny n God will take care in any case!! :D

Winds of Change said...

hey gurl...u wana do sumthin diffrnt n creative rite? .....i hear sum ppl go for ...watz dat called???....ah! yeah..dance n art classes...:D ....sure it aint as whacky as 'the holiday' (LOL) ...but for starterz....leme kno......cuz it luks like all of us r sailin in the same boat...

gayathri said...

hey ur writing is good:)))... ya true i knw in life u need a break always.. so happy journey go to some nice place n cm:))

dont lose ur confidence watever it is...!!!try to do introspection as u rightly said nobody can know us better than oursekves.. so chill relax n tk decision!!!

U wil do ur best wherever is ue destiny i knw.. i hav confidence on u dear!!!:))) jus keep smiling n dnt wry abt things..sure something GOOD s waiting for u!!!

A.Johnson said...

Hey

Im really not that worried bout you in this respect simply cuz your way too good at anything and everything you do... so chill... I believe in your destiny too.. a destiny where you end up exactly where you'd wana be.

RoyalRajput_Singh said...

Just do what u feel like.. never come in any pressure..Try not to kill time coz this yr is not gna cme again in life (Campus Yr).. u have many ppl behind u to support ur decisions!!!!